Reflection

Whenever anyone says something vague to me or they're tryna do something to be like unfriending me, I would be down for few days. I can't really control all these but these are the symptoms of BPD.

I was always asking myself, why would people unfriend me, I was like, I didn't even know what happened, I can barely know what people are thinking 'bout, and it just happened right away.

There's too much "Why"s I wanna ask, those I'd probably never know in my life.

"Non, je ne regrette rien", which means "No, I never regretted". So do I?

I did regret, but it's all too late to save me from hell.

I can't fix my life but I can escape from this city.

But I don't understand, why all my faiths are fake.

I would never easily trust anybody again. This is what I always told myself, and I never actually did it. It's way too hard for me.

So, what do I actually want?

Sorry, I don't know. What I know is, I've to elapse my new life as fast as I can.

I tried way too hard to maintain all my friendships, and what turned out, all of em are shitty things

「難題是時光未許倒流明日只可向下流」

btw, promote myself a bit — check my covers on youtube lol, seems singing has been the only way for me to express my feelings out.

https://www.youtube.com/chrischan514